Thursday, March 26, 2009


We are getting ready for the game tonight! This is what she did when I said "GO TIGERS GO" She is already a fan and doesn't even know it!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

March...What a month

Well March has been one of the hardest Months since Poppy has passed.....It was Poppy and Nanny's Anniversary on the 19th and Poppy's Birthday was the 22nd. We made it thru him being in and out of the hospital for months, him dying, his funeral and bureal, now if we can just make it thru this month.....I know if we can make it thru this month we can make it thru anything. Maci and I went and visited Poppy on his birthday. I know it might not be the best idea to take Maci to a graveyard but I want her to visit him just as much as I do. It was very hard to go out there for the first time since his funeral but we did it and it was very peaceful! We sat there and sang Happy Birthday to him and just cryed and cryed. I cryed because I miss him so much and Maci cried because she wanted out of her carseat and because she missed him. The family met at Nanny's on Sunday and we ate dinner for Poppy's birthday. We mainly did it so Nanny wouldn't be alone on that day. Nanny did very well! I admire how strong she has been thru the whole thing. She has her days where she breaks down but she will never let you know it. She has lost so much weight and I am very worried about her, please pray for her. I can't even imagine what she is going thru but I wish I could take all her pain away! Lord please lead, guide and give us comfort thru this day and everyday!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Maci's new favorite thing.....

At Christmas Paw Paw and Cacki got Maci an exersaucer and of course she was too little to get in it. Lastnight, I decided I would try her in it. I put her in there and she LOVED IT. She worked herself into the seat until she was comfortable! She even hit the buttons to make them make noise and she was grasping onto things and turning herself around too! SHE WAS AMAZED! Sorry the pictures are blurry but she wouldn't be still long enough for me to get a good picture!

Monday, March 16, 2009

I miss him more and more as the days go by......

Not only is our precious little girl 3 months old today, My grandfather Poppy passed away 2 months ago today. I can't explain the hurt and pain that I feel everyday. When I see his truck going down the highway I think it is him and I waive, when I call Nanny's house and she doesn't answer I hear him on the answering machine....... I miss him so much.

While he was sick and in and out of the hospital I was in the other side of the hospital having Maci and then ofcourse I couldn't take her to the hospital because she wasn't supposed to go anywhere for 2 months because of the risk of her getting sick so needless to say I didn't get to spend much time with him before he passed. Amanda, my mom or my mother-n-law would come over as often as possible and watch Maci so I could go down to the hospital to visit for a little while, it just never seemed like I got to visit enough. When someone in the family is sick it is hard to find a babysitter and you don't just want to leave your newborn baby with anyone.
Around Christmas Poppy got to come home for several days because he was doing better and on Christmas Eve Chase and I took Maci over to see Poppy because we didn't think he was going to make it much longer. We weren't even supposed to have Maci out but we fiqured this was the best thing since he was so bad off. Poppy held Maci for a minute and called her a "little squirt". Maci was only 7 days old at the time. I didn't take my camera with me so needless to say I didn't even get a picture of them together....... I am SO HAPPY Chase and I took her over there that day because if we had not Poppy would have never seen Maci because 2 days after that he went in the hospital and never got out.
We have all had a REALLY hard time with the fact that he is gone but Nanny, Skip, and Daddy have had an especially hard time with Poppy passing away. He was there EVERYTHING and they are so lost without him. The day of poppy's funeral dad lost it and I didn't think he would ever make it thru it, but he did. It killed me and Skip to see dad that way. Nanny and Daddy have found peace by spending time with Maci. I have never felt better when Nanny told me that the day she watched Maci for me was the best day she has had since poppy passed away. Nanny is now watching Maci one day a week and both of them have so much fun. Everyone says that it gets better with time, I sure hope that is true. So I am dedicating this to you Poppy! We love you so much and miss you more that you could ever imagine. We think about you everyday, all day and I wish you were here to watch Maci grow and meet little Adalyn Grace when she decides to make her grand entrance but I know you are in a better place! Lord, please give us peace and comfort on this day and everyday!

Maci is 3 months old

Well today our little girl is 3 months old! Time has flown by so quick and she is growing up so fast. It seems like yesterday I was going to the doctor every week begging him to induce me! Maci is smiling and laughing at everything and she talks all the time. She even started talking in the middle of church Sunday and I couldn't do anything to stop her...haha She is doing really well at holding her head up and it won't be long and she will be rolling over, she almost has it! I can tell she is getting her own little personality and it is so sweet! She is also showing signs of being spoilt, I wonder how that happened. Being the first grandchild on both sides of the family...How could it not happen?!?!?

~Our sweet little girl~

Lastnight when I laid Maci in her cradle I had put a stuffed lamb over to the side earlier in the day! When I went in there to check on her I found her holding on to the lamb and kissing it, she even fell asleep holding it! This was the sweetest thing I have ever seen! She is so precious and such a wonderful blessing to our lives. I can't express how much we love her! Being mommy and daddy is the most AMAZING feeling in the world!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Working Hard.....Kinda scary

Well this is what Maci does most of the day while we are at work. I know the blanket is over her face but that is the only way she will sleep. When I lay her down in her cradle at night before I can get in the bed she has the blanket pulled over her face. She must not like seeing the light when she is trying to sleep. I watch her very close at all times because this really bothers me but if that is what she likes what else can I do????? At night I let her sleep with a crocheted blanket because it has holes in it and I know she can still breathe. I have tried to put her in the sleep sack things but she gets so hot and throws a fit! Just thought I would share this picture to let you all see how hard Maci works all day. She is the youngest child I know with a full-time job!!

I am so blessed that I can bring Maci to work with me everyday, although some days are harder than others I wouldn't change it for world. I get to see everything new she does and it makes everyday worth living!